April 2019

April didn't just shower, it poured with challenges. Thankfully love and support overflowed as well during this time. When I felt myself being pushed to my limits all I could think was that life is too short. Make time for what and who matters to you.

January 2019

January 2019. The new year came in real strong and I still feel dazed from it all. So many highs and lows already and it's only been one month. Here we go 2019.

Spinning Through 2016

Just going to leave this here as a reminder. 2016 was definitely a rough year for many, but we made it. We often focus on the bad, sad, trying times and allow for that to drain our spirit. Every year will come with its challenges, but the key is to remember that you are not alone and to celebrate the good times. 

Where you focus your energy becomes your reality. Focus on your blessings and spend time with the people you love. In the end, money don't mean shit. Your memories you take with you wherever you go and the memories you make with others will live on. 


Analog Lives

Was looking for a cable and found an old friend. The Polaroid One Step 600, which was originally my mom and dad's. It had one shot left on it. I scrambled through some more cables in the bin and found an unopened pack of 600 film!! Package said it expired 01/09. Today is 01/17. 

8 years later, some of the chemicals have dried up, but it still works! #winning

Hello 30

April 2016 came and went and now it's the final day of August 2016. 

Those 4 months between April and August were intense.

During that time I managed to plan the biggest party I've thrown to date to celebrate and acknowledge the journey I've been on for the last 30 years. The best part of the celebration was being surrounded by people I love and who love me in return. 

I've been doing a lot of reflecting since then, looking back at all the ups, downs, twists and turns that have brought me to where I am today. The people who have come in and out of my life. All the connections made and lost. I don't believe in regrets, just lessons learned. 

So what's next? So many things.

Hello, 30. Let's do this!

(Thanks Kuya Ivan for making the massive letters for me!)

4 months down, 4 months to go until 30

2016's start was tumultuous. The winds of change came in hard and knocked me down in all kinds of ways and took me on many twists and turns that I didn't anticipate. But really, when do we ever know for sure? In an attempt to answer that question, I listened to Oprah's "What I Know For Sure" in audio book form. That definitely sped the healing along and got me back on my feet. And yes, I did start to collect bits and pieces of what I know for sure.

There were many lessons learned and many that I'm still in the process of learning. My greatest challenge at the moment is being IN the moment. Though its a simple idea and I've heard it numerous times, I found myself being lost in the moment rather than being present to it. So, as my life as I knew it was falling apart all around me,  I left the country for about a month and gained some clarity, much needed relaxation and faced some truths. 

It's been a crazy first four months and now only four more months remain until 30. While most people my age don't look forward to getting older, I've been looking forward to my 30's. I feel like 20's are the fuck-shit-up-and-thats-okay years. I explored, got my hardcore partying out of my system, found some fantastic life friends and chosen family and tried out different career paths. In this time I've also developed and fostered an amazing support system and am grateful to know that if shit ever hit the fan really hard, there are people in my life who would drop whatever they were doing to be there for me. I feel like there are people that search for that all their lives and here I am at 29 with more people I can count on than I have fingers and toes to count them with. That, I do know for sure. #blessed

And according to all the seniors, elders, and mentors in my life, 30 is just the beginning. 

Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end.
— Semisonic



Dear Human

"Dear Human,

You've got it all wrong.

You didn't come here to master unconditional love. This is where you came from and where you'll return.

You came here to learn personal love.
Universal love.
Messy love.
Sweaty Love.
Crazy love.
Broken love.
Whole love.
Infused with divinity.
Lived through the grace of stumbling.
Demonstrated through the beauty of... messing up.

You didn't come here to be perfect, you already are.

You came here to be gorgeously human. Flawed and fabulous.

And rising again into remembering.

But unconditional love? Stop telling that story.

Love in truth doesn't need any adjectives.
It doesn't require modifiers.
It doesn't require the condition of perfection.

It only asks you to show up.
And do your best.
That you stay present and feel fully.
That you shine and fly and laugh and cry and hurt and heal and fall and get back up and play and work and live and die as YOU.

Its enough.

It's plenty."

- Courtney A. Walsh